.Wednesday, November 17, 2004 ; 6:16 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
I was quite "lucky" because the rain started when I was one bus stop away from HMKT bus stop. I was hoping for something else. Well..heck care..juz walk back lar. It was really nice to walk in the rain..provided no one is around. The feeling of cold raindrops gently resting on my skin is refreshing. The cold wind was superb. I just love walking in the. Feels like going back to the past when worries and problems are practically non-existent.
Today has been quite a productive day for me. I went to study at Esplanade library..Yap..kinda far but it's really condusive for studying. I got a nice seat facing the window. The view in front of me was the place that I was reading about. A century ago, that place was filled with ships and merchants and traders. Then, I went to eat lunch at Food Junction. At last, a decent food after more than 1 week? Then, I went to Starbucks for my rhumba frappucinno. Yummy..It was divine (like ky will say) and relaxing. I finished 3 or 4 reading materials (can't remember exactly), and 2 lecture notes. I'm left with 4 lectures for ss...which I will try to complete by tonight...feel like going into seclusion hahaha...enjoying the quietness...before the first paper tomorrow.Should I go back to AMK tomorrow?And come back on saturday?Maybe I should since I'm gonna study ST and SS.
Well..I am exceptionally calm today. Is it what people call the calm before the great white storm?I have to sleep early tonight..Yeah..
I'm such a thinker. I think and imagine too much. Maybe the course that suits me is fine arts where I can express all the frames I have in my already overcrowded brain into canvas. Thinking too much is irritating~!!Very Irritating.
Well..I'm very scared of people getting angry at me. I just don't know what to do. Apologize won't do any good since harm has been inflicted. But, what else can I do?I can't turn back the time. Is this my weakness?or I'm juz plain people pleaser? I need to get away after exam. All these things are driving me crazy. Maybe I will be better off If I never come here?I don't know..maybe not. V(^_^)V I miss my councillors~!!Hope they are all alright.
Hmm..must be the weather that cause all the gloominess in me. Hey Cheeer up Kathy~!!Duality of things. There's always the good side of bad things. God will lead me..definitely.
