.Thursday, January 13, 2005 ; 1:59 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
It has been "a year" since the last time I posted an entry. Well, I should say I don't have a good start to this year. First few days were plague by fear, insecurity and ultimately tears.
One poem to summarise all...
I hate the way you look at me
The way your hair looked like in the sun
I hate the way you dance
I hate it when you stare
I hate you big dumb pullover
and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
even makes me run
I hate it when you sing
even more when you reasoned
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you are not around
and the fact that you didn't call
but mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
-adapted from 10 things I hate about you.
Well, It's still hurt. I'm trying to brush them out of my mind...trying very hard actually.
Sometimes being nice and caring are such a pain. It's really painful. When will this go away?
Should I turn?
or should I stay?
Should I Tear?
Or should i just be numb???
