.Friday, May 06, 2005 ; 1:07 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Well, it's been sometimes since the last time I posted something. I've moved out of hall this morning. Weird, but somehow, I feel sad leaving the hall. It's like I'm not going back to hall anymore. Which is obviously not true because I'll be back at the end of the month. So here I am, back in my old room and trying to type an entry.
Many things have happen for the past weeks. Sigh..Another emotional roller coaster ride to me. I hate myself for thinking too much. I was walking on a very fine fishing line and was almost went back to square one. The feeling is scary. I shuddered everytime I think of it. Saturday, Sunday and Wednesday were the "danger" day.
Someone told me that I may be unnecessarily putting myself in a dangerous position. I admit that. All this while, Im carrying a baggage that actually can be thrown away 3 months ago. Why do I still carrying it?Becoz I like to put myself in a dangerous situation..and I'm stubborn. It was a thorn in the flesh and I have no idea how to extract it. Sometimes I just wanna cry it out to release everything. Unfortunately, no tears come out. Even my tear duct does not obey me. %&%#
The train is doomed. It is moving towards a tunnel without an exit. I will not survive unless I jump out of the train or someone bother to reverse the train. Ya..it will be painful if I force myself to jump, at least, after the short pain, I'll feel more secure of myself and feel grown up. haha..
