.Wednesday, July 13, 2005 ; 2:47 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Finally, another day passed by. I only did staircases but felt really great. HAha...I didn't do them from scratch but I gave them "coats"..plywood covering to be exact. And I moved to my new room! Somehow, this room still has the smell of deb.
I was suppose to be watching the remaining of initial D but got hooked up on MSN. After MSN chatting, I clicked on a few friends blog. Well, I accidentally clicked on a link and got to a supposedly an old journal. So I started to read. Along the way, I found many interesting stuff. Nevermind them. Not important anyway.
As I was reading, I found out that God has sent an angel down to my side to look after me when I struggled. The angel is my dearest friend. He was there when I needed someone to talk to. "scared I may get hurt again and didn't want that to happen", he said. I used to joke on how he was so panicky when 3 of us were at the same place. I used to tease on how kan chiong he is. But, deep inside I'm really grateful to this angel. Tears rolled down when I read that paragraph. I don't know why. Plus, I was listening to Corrine May's Fly away..a really nice but sad song. Both touched my heart. Both made me cried. The last time I cried was beginning of this year.
Somehow, it feels special to be looked after by someone or some people. I was the eldest child in the family. I am expected to be strong, mature, and smart. Mom used to scold me when I cried. She said I should be stronger. Crying cant solve any problem. To think of it, my parents rarely see me cry. So since young, I have to be okay with the fact that I don't need to be looked after. I did and I am. After all, i'm still a human. But, God has been looking after me all these while. He even sent me so many angels to stay by my side to bring me joy, happiness, and to guide me.
Dear friend, you know who you are..Thanks a lot for everything. You may feel that it's nothing but I really greatly appreciate what you have done. Just for you to know, i'm here when you need someone to talk to. Like last time...you were there. Not only that, I may continue to irritate you. ^^
Corrinne May - Fly Away
"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
