.Wednesday, July 20, 2005 ; 3:56 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Today is exactly 7 days since my last post. Busy busy like a bee, racing against the time, trying to multitask and at the same time making sure my product is up to standard.
Finally the weekend came, and I got a chance to go back home. I'm really glad that I took a day off from work last sat. Basically, that sat was spent catching up with old friends. I miss the times spent with them. I really do. In the afternoon, I met Nat whom I haven't met for almost 3 years. At night, the councillors and I had dinner at marina south. All of us change somehow or another. But, we all still as ready as we used to be to meet one another. As I mentioned before, I felt uneasy for neglecting my outside friends. Seems like, time spent in hall is really too much. For instance, I supposed to be at a place, but in the end I didn't. Reason?haiz..due to my location, due to my priorities..Whatever. Oh ya..about what happened during the weekend, I shall post them in another entry.
I found out from Nat that Christine feels uneasy with the idea of meeting me. She said that it is not really right for us to meet after all that has happened 4 years ago. I was like, "come one, i'm over it~!It's been 4 years for goodness sake. I almost forgotten about it". She thinks I'm still blaming her for what has happened?She and Guan hui's relationship no longer bothers me. And no I do not like GH. Yep, last time I used to like him but later on I realised the GH I liked was the Gh I created in my mind..not his real person. Years ago, I was still a naive child who thought that relationships and love are like the one potrayed in comic books and TVs and movies. The girl secretly in love with the guy and wishing that he would like her back. Communication and nteraction is not really needed. That's my case with GH. I didn't even talk to him. CMI lar...Anyway, it was a mistake..I mean liking him. Wasting my time only. Whatever..It is the past now. Let it rest, let it be.
I have hit my limit for today. My eye lids are closing but I'm determined to finish typing this entry. As I made my way back to my room, an urge to find comfort rushed through my mind. I just wanna lay on the bed with all the lights off and listen to prayer and praises songs. Listening to gospel songs can really relax my mind. The lyrics are filled with praised and worship to our Dear Lord. As I listened to them, my soul is worshiping too. Subconciously, I'm singing praises together with the singer. These days, I'm really distracted. Quiet times are getting lesser and lesser. Bible reading likewise. When I have the time, I'll do these two things. Truly it is amazing how spending tme reading God's word can give me the comfort and solace I'm searching for. Many search for a warm resting place, many go in circles. How many have thought that God's place is that place they are searching for. Lord Jesus said in Matthew 11:28 - 29 "
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." It is promised to us this way and I am very much assured that this will be done once we invited Christ into our life. Yep, confirm plus guaranteed plus chop...^............,^
