.Tuesday, August 09, 2005 ; 3:08 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
This is a continuation from previous entry.
Where was I?I can't remember. Anyway, I was having a long chat with Z about many many things. I can see that he himself was clueless. As clueless and confused as me. "were you giving him to much attention?", he asked. Maybe I am. I cared too much, I gave in too much. Was it worth it? By right, it is not. Heck it, I'm always going by left. Therefore, it is worth it.
One thing I should agree with him. Timing is crucial. When we missed it, that's it. It is like you saw the most delicious tiramisu and you are so determined to have it. Alas, another person was faster than you by 2 seconds to reach the counter and paid for it. Yeah..that's the fact. Chew on it.
So we went to Coffee club to chill. I left the group for a while. Appearently, I went away for too long. Got a call from them but I rejected it. Why I went away? Well, I'm the kind of person that will suddenly take a step backward and withdraw from the crowd. That's what I felt like doing yesterday. I just grew quiet. If I stayed there, people will asked whether I'm ok. I am. I just wanna be alone. Okay, I bluffed. I'm not ok. Pretending is never my forte.
I guess it's because of my conversation with Z. It's time to rectify many many things. Oh..where did I go? I went to Meritius Mandarin Hotel to answer nature's call.
A friend told me, loving someone, whether it's one sided or 2 sided (sounds like stats), fills our heart with warmth, hope and of course pain. Yep, I agreed. How long will I stay this way?I also dunno. Many hypothetical questions asked, many options considered, but none is certain coz It's hypothetical. On an issue like this, I can't really picture the end. Can I?Or actually I can see the end. I'm just in denial about many things??Am I?
