.Friday, October 14, 2005 ; 5:09 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Mixed feeling...
Some were sour, some were empty, some were longing.
As the warm and intoxicating taste of flaming lambo flows down my throat
They are new, exciting with a tinge of uneasiness.
Weird I must say..
In a way it was intoxicating..
Well, that's what I felt throughout the night. The party was fun. The crowd was okay. Music was fine. I found myself on the same dance floor with different people. Don't be mistaken. They are fun and wonderful party people. As the alcohol ran through my network of blood vessel, faces flashed in front of me. Fast and fleeting. As I danced with others, his face came and went. I guess it was just me comparing the feeling when I danced. His was sweet and innocent but sexy at the same time. But, I'm not gonna allow myself to go back to that old path. It was too sweet yet hurting.
"It hurts cox you know you like him".
We are awful creature. Never learn from mistakes.
A few other faces came and went too. Well, they were just distractions. Nothing will happen. I miss clubbing with the right crowd. When I was high, I want to be with the best crowd. I was high today, but the feeling is just not right. Something is missing.
Whatever it is, I had fun watching people blabbering nonsense when they are drunk. It's funny how a person can be so depressed and so elated when they are drunk. I guess people go to alcohol because it can provide a momentary release from whatever shit inside their mind. I saw two extreme today. One was hyperactive and happy another was down and sorrowful. I know I am a selfish person. The sorrow reminded me of my own. That's why I stayed with the happy one.
