.Monday, April 24, 2006 ; 1:33 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
My mouse is officially pronounced dead at 0131 hrs. Sad case. I'm not gonna buy some $12 mouse anymore.
Study momentum was broken by yesterday sumptuous lunch at Munchy Monkeys and pleasant dinner at KFC. Instead of revising, I happily drifted away to lala land and that was after I finished a bottle of nescafe gold roast. It's suppose to keep me awake, not make me sleep like a log! The clock struck 4 when I woke up. Studying non stop till night time was the plan. Plan failed. I still have 4 lecture notes to read for tomorrow's paper.
I had a weird dream. In there, everything was as it used to be in hall; people gathering in lounge, bullshitting and trying to be funny. Then, one of my ic decided to give a "rag dance" presentation. Inside the lounge!How on earth are they suppose to dance there. Nevertheless I just let them proceed with it. Soon, people gathered outside the lounge and they even ordered uncle V supper. Apparently someone said it's for rag comm and I'm supposed to sign something when the supper came. Hence, I'm not allowed to leave. Suddenly the world starts to spin, literally. My chairperson asked my what happen and said something like "I can't have anaemic people going around fainting." I was too giddy to respond anyway. Then I woke up. Apparently the giddiness I experienced in my half asleep dream followed me. How can something happen in subconcious realms also happen when I'm concious?That's odd.
I wonder how is my Uplands school mate now. 5 years have passed since the last time I step into that school building. I didn't keep in contact with any of my classmate. Well, tried to find them for a few times but apparently I didn't try hard enough. Gave it up and hope that someone from my past will contact me instead. Anyway, it's funny how a small country like this can be so big that some of us who chosed to come here never meet each other. Not even once. Okay, there was once I went out with Nat but that's all. Are we avoiding one another?If we are, what for? I heard that they didn't "try" to contact me coz they feel uneasy letting me see how happy they are now. HuH?What kind of logic is that? Funny how people responds to certain things that happened. Well, for me, I heard some nasty stuff said by her. Something about I always make use of her. I used to hang out at her house after school. Sometimes she would sent me back, sometimes she didn't . She told our mutual friends that I made her sent me back. I did not! Most of the time she volunteered. Our friend believed her! I practically blew my top!What rubbish?!?!I treated her like my good friend and she bitched about me. *roll eyes*
Whatever, that was the past. Learned my lesson not to accept things as it is and not to be so naive. You'll never know when daggers will be thrown at your back.
Well, the guy is in army now. He looks pretty much the same as 5 years ago. I was blind then. *rolls eyes again* Whatever.
Things change so do friends. 70% of the people I met in my life are more of "circumstances" friends. They don't last long. Primary school friends are gone with the wind. I was an outcast. Some thought I was a weird brainy kid and people don't usually hang out with me. Secondary school friends were much better at least for my 2 years in Meth2. I got to know a few really nice people there. One of them suddenly hate me I don't know why. Don't bother to find out either. Then I left for Penang and lost contact with most of them as they also went away to further their study. Uplands school was an eye opener to me. One phrase to illustrate it : American high school. Queen bees, outcasts, the alpha males from senior classes, the cool asian group, the geeks, basically it's like something straight out of hollywood high school movie. That was where I met daughters of influential people from my town. Again, symbiotic friends. To be fair, not all of them were like that. I did enjoy the company of few of them. We were still in contact before I came here.
I would say JC was my best time. That was when people were real friends, namely my classmates and my councillors. Hopefully we'll still be in contact for at least another 20 years or so. I'm not making enough effort to keep in contact, am I? Too caught up with my new life and study, I tend to neglect them. Without hall life, saturday will definitely be my hanging-out-with-friends day and not sleep-till-dinner-time-comes day or committee-work day. But then again, without hall life, I won't meet this bunch of wonderful pepz.
Whatever.
Something to ponder about here. Have we taken the wrong step?I mean those distinctions between groups that was created during the beginning of this academic year. Somehow, one thought that the other group is bossy and likes to play pranks on the other group. In the beginning (I'm referring to beginning of academic year), I thoiught it was just for fun and things will somehow integrate themselves into one single entity and not multilayered entities. That was what happen for last academic year. Everyone was settled and successfully integrated themselves into this community. And why am I even pondering about this?Waste brain cells only....
