.Thursday, August 31, 2006 ; 12:29 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
I shan't deal with this issue any longer. That chapter has closed. But, I guess I'm gonna said my final words on this issue. I stumbled upon things that I rather selectively forget. Why?It was one of my saddest times in hall. Lonely and lost, that's what I felt. The saddest part was not the drifting apart or lost of friendship. It was the lack of initiative on our side to mend the broken bridges. There were many roads to Rome. But, all these roads were damaged. Beyond repair?I don't know. If I tried to mend them, why cant those who are using the roads did their part? In short, I'm tired of extending invitation to others when it was obvious they don't bother. Yup, as of now, I won't be having any form of unnecessary communication with them. I have deemed them unworthy unless proven otherwise. Unless they take the initiative to mend the roads. I won't apologize coz I have done my part trying to communicate 2 and half month ago. Enough is enough.
My focus now is God and the juniors. They are bunch of adorable people who deserve the pretty side of hall. I want them to have good experience of hall. When they look back, they remember not the politics and unhappiness among people but the suppers, happy times, funny silly things they did when they were freshmen. I saw my old self in them. Not that I've changed much.
I haven't been seeing him lately. Where is the courage of speaking up and letting the other party know how I felt? Somehow, I feel like leaving things as it is now. He has his own life, I have mine. Our path only crossed once in a while. I feel sad to let go. Such chance may not come again. I don't know about him but I felt something when we talked or we simply walked side by side. Once I decided to let go, I won't allow myself to think about him anymore. Shutting out every single opportunity that may lead me to consider some other scenarios. Darn, I feel like crying. Have been missing him lately. Knowing that he is somewhere near yet cant see him is worst than knowing that he is somewhere far and chances of seeing him is practically 0.
Well, as for other story, it is an old story and it will stay as it is. N.O.T.H.I.N.G!
we are back as friends. Seriously, he is one of the few guy friend whom I can click really well with. Why is that? Nothing could ever happen. Nothing.
