.Thursday, October 12, 2006 ; 1:44 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
I wasn't exactly happy today. The reasons were unclear. The grumpiness and gloominess hung in the air like dark clouds. The worst part is I don't know why. Again, I missed pharmaco lecture. It was rather hard for me to wake up. No idea why. Eyes have been itchy and irritated lately due to the dust particles in the air. Ok enough of whining and complaining. Sometimes I just want someone to lean on. There's no need for words, just lap or shoulder to lean on. Oh well..I should get a bigger or maybe human size soft toy.
Human is such a limited being. There's just so little love we can give one another. So limited we are that hopelesness is what came out of it. No wonder God told us to fellowship with one another. On my own, I am weak and lonely. With my bros and sis in Christ, I am loved and cared for. One thing I realised, I cant give love to people when I myself felt like shit; just like today. Although I know Daddy always love me, there are times I feel like this. It's just me. I chose to look at Christ instead. Well, did Jesus felt lonely during His time on earth?Some Jews rejected Him, some reserved their judgement, some simply don't care. He was misunderstood by the pharisees as someone who came to throw away the Torah. His disciples ran away when Jesus was betrayed to Pilates. His very own disciple betrayed Him. When He was crucified, He cried out My God My God why have you forsaken Me? I wonder what made Jesus cried out in that way. That was the only time Jesus called God the Father, Eli or God. Our sins have made Jesus the most cursed Man on the cross. "cursed is he who hanged on a tree" And ( i don't know whether to say the irony or the worst part) Jesus knew all these will happen. He told Peter that he will betray Jesus 3 times before the cock crows. God has given up so much to become one of us but without sin. In old testament, God was almighty, full of glory, (don't get me wrong, He still is). He was the God who created this universe, send the flood during Noah's days, part the red sea for Israel to pass through, defeated the Amalekhis, He was the burning bushes whom Moses met. God revealed Himself in Jesus Christ (John 14:7 if you had known Me, you would have known the Father also; and from now on you know Him and have seen Him), Son of God (to understand this, we must first understand the Godhead; God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit). He gave up all that to be bornt into the world. God make Himself whose throne is on heaven to become a human whom skin and frame were a form of constriction and limitation. Reason?Because of Israel, because of gentiles, because of the world. Love it is. John 3:16
My moodiness is nothing compare to Jesus' love for the world. I just wanna thank you that Your beauty still shines through the dark clouds.
Well, I visited vivo city and took a walk around the complex. Rooftop was awesome with pool and amphitheatre. That is the only place I like hahaha...Romantic place. Minus the haze, that place is perfect for dating.
I heard of 3 types of r/s problems today. There are not my relationships but I feel for them. One knows the problem yet.....Oh well, I shouldn't just jump to conclusion. Wait and see, I shall. It will be a sad case if he indeed drifted apart due to this thing. Not worth it.
