.Tuesday, October 24, 2006 ; 1:24 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you
How many feel like what the lyric describe?I do at times. Wandering and wondering in the darkness. Trying to feel my way and find my bearings. When the day starts off at the wrong note, I want to belief that things will be fine at the end of the day. As I lowered my head to my pillow, I want to think that my day has been fine. Most of the time, I just drifted off to dream land before putting a conclusion to my day.
At times, I don't even know what am I doing. Why did I spurned that fellow?Why did I feel irritated and showed that I was irritated by my friends?I shouldn't have say such things. Well, familiar feeling isn't it? We are human after all. But, there are choices. Stay that way?Change it and strive to be a better person by our self effort? Ask for help?
I was told that this generation is the "I" generation. Everything is about me, me, me, me, me, and me. Me, my rights, myself, my pleasure, my wants, my needs, my money, mine, mine, mine!
What a world we are living in!Self love, self adoration, those are the values nowadays. What happen?
Many times, I do behave as if the world revolved around me. The reality is the world revolves around its axis and not around any particular creature. Abundance and life of luxury have cultivate such habit. Sad isn't it?Look around us, how many people's life have we touched?Or rather, how many people's feeling have we stepped on by reasons like "it's my life, get lost" or "it's my right" or "it's just me".
Honestly, I have been there and done those above and I'm seeking help from my Daddy to change me to be less selfish. He knows me inside out. By myself, I am helpless and clueless. Nowhere to start, and nowhere to end. I need my Shepherd to guide me. It's a long journey, I will falter and I will cry. I will stumble and along the way, I'll leave traces of other's life affected by me. But, I know my Shepherd will lead me on and comfort me along the away. When I am lost or stray away from the flock of sheeps, He will leave the flock and find me. I am sure of that?How sure you asked?As sure as the sun will rise again tomorrow and as sure as the haze will continue for at least another week.
