It the time of the semester. Yes, Exam, that is. This is also the reason for me not posting any updates. I went to church for bible study today. What a blessed time with my Daddy God. I shall share about what was preached by pastor lian in next post. As for this post, I wanna share on what has been happening for the past few weeks.

Spiritually, I was troubled and dried up. Deadlines looming and pressure to do well was weighing down. To top it off, I got C+ for my microbiology CA. TIme spent with Daddy God was very minimal. It was like trying to do for the sake of doing. In those weeks, I longed for some signs, miracles...anything that assures my troubling heart. I still remembered my prayer. I asked the Lord to assure and guard my heart. I asked for fresh encounter with Jesus. I asked for an assurance that I will be able to do honors year. Seems like my desire to do honors was bigger than my Jesus. On that friday, I started my day with 3 messages on wisdom, rest in God and something else. Peace descended on my heart. I felt much better. It was during my cell group meeting that God ministered to me in full blown. I was sharing this with a friend. He is also in my cg. He said that cg was a free and easy session; as in no messages to share whatsoever. How did it minister to me? Isn't it amazing. God uses even the most ordinary situation to tell His beloved that everything is fine.

During that friday cg, we had discussion on certain aspect of our belief. Then, cui said God always has our best interest. He has great plans for us and He will not put us to shame. Even if we came out with a D for a paper, that D will not affect our entire life. It may not even affect the prospect of finding job or having a bright future. Why?Coz Daddy God already has the future planned for us even before we existed. We only need to trust Him. During the worship, all the songs seemed to speak to me. I asked Daddy to guard my heart and He answered back "I am the peace that guard your heart." He even made me confess this sentence as I sang that song. This verse was printed together with the song sheet:

Philippians 4:6-7
Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Daddy didn't only assure me but He told me what to do. The night before I was reading book of John. The verse in John 14:1 seemed like jumping out of the page. "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God^[a]; trust also in me (Jesus)." Then He told me not to worry again during one of the sermons I listened to on Friday morning. And He drove the message into me during the cg. My Lord always exceeded what I asked. Hallelujah!All praises to Him only. That night was the turning point. Worry fled, anxiety left and I was left with peace that is from God only. I cried so much on the way back to hall. Daddy told me don't worry and I won't.

Exam has not passed. But I am sure that I will emerged victorious. Coz I am loved deeply by Jesus. He is good and faithful. People may asked why I am a christian. My answer is because Jesus loved me so much that He died for me! I know that and I want to be with Him.
It's funny how problems blinded one's eyes. Problems are solvable that is why they are called problems. In my nick I post a qs; what will you do when you are surrounded by troubles? I didn't expect any answers. But someone did answer me. My answer is I will look to Jesus. I will see Him and see myself righteous and loved. Not because of my good works but because of what Christ did on the cross. Praise Jesus.

I'm still like a baby in Christ. Still in need of milk and guidance and love of my Saviour.

A song I found in someone's blog. Simple yet beautiful

Verse 1
I am not skilled to understand what God has willed, what God has planned.
I only know at His right hand stands One who is my Savior.
I take Him at His word and deed. Christ died to save me, this I read.
And in my heart I find a need of Him to be my Savior.

Pre-Chorus
That He would leave His place on high and come for sinful man to die,
You count it strange; so once did I before I knew my Savior.

Chorus
My Savior loves. My Savior lives.
My Savior’s always there for me.
My God He was. My God He is.
My God is always gonna be...
(repeat)

Verse 2
Yes, living, dying, let me bring my strength, my solace from this spring
That He who lives to be my King once died to be my Savior.

~KatZ~

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