.Sunday, December 03, 2006 ; 4:35 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
I can't sleep. Well, it's not really a bad thing. But, I'm meeting a few friends in the morning for KTV sessions. Well, they might or might not see a zombified person.
Anyway, both my friends are dating each other right now!I'm so happy for them! Hhahahha...Somehow, I'm always happy for people who decided to share an extended period of their life together. Seems like they are going to have such good time with each other forever. It is called the "living happily ever after" mentality that was drilled into my head by fairy tales like Cinderella, Snow white, etc. I guess I just choose to ignore the bad part of relationship. My neighbour and I were talking about chasing guys. LoL. Not literal meaning. This is my neighbour's theory. First, a girl need to find her target. Then, find out how is he like, what kind of girl he likes. Next, try to meet the "equilibrium" point - the point where the guy's requirement of a gf and the girl's requirement of a bf meet.
Somehow, we concluded that there's not many quality guys around. Below is the trancript of our conversation.
Neighbour : guy A is not bad wat..he is gentle and smart.
Me: but he whines a lot. I can't stand guys who whine every moment I see them
Neighbor : what abt guy B?
Me: He?! Haiz..He always whine too.
Neighbour: So what kind of guy is your dream guy
Me: Actually I dunno what type of guy I'm looking for. Rather, I'm not looking for any. Hmm..there is this guy that super caught my attention. He is tall, around 189+ cm. His look is a mixture of mature man and bad boy. He used to work as bodyguard. (showed her the guy's pic) He acted in triumph of the skies that is showing in chnU now. He in pilot uniform was super dashing!Swoonnzz
Neighbour: Wah!Ya! He is good looking. Lemme watch that show he acted in!
Me: his name is Joe ma. Married already. But still, he is my dream guy.LOL I guess I wont find this type of guy here. Sadz
Trying to minimize the chance of meeting him, but, it comes to no avails. The opportunities of meeting him pop up every week. It may sounds silly, but I'm trying not to talk to him so much. Not until my feeling has been neutralize by time. He has no idea about this. Not even a tiny bit. Anyway, he doesn't have to. Sometimes knowing everything will only cause more headache.
Hmm..If he got together with someone that I know, will I be sad? Sometimes I wonder whether this feeling is for real or just a passing by thing. Last few weeks, I didn't even think about him coz I was too engrossed with exam preparation. Sigh..I'm a sucker in this kind of thing. In the end, I choose to ignore and distract myself with other thing. Wait for things to disappear by itself. There is a saying "once bitten, twice shy". If I wasn't wrong, I was bitten once. The wound took one year plus to heal.
I guess other than the future, people themselves are also an "unknown".
Jesus is the best. He loves me and He didn't wait for "the right time" to tell me that He loves me. He tells me everyday. The joy I have every morning when I open my eyes is from Him. I cant see His physical self but I feel His presence. A knowing that He is there and He loves me.
Why can't human be like Him?If they love someone, go on and tell them. It is agonizing for the other party to wait and ponder and wonder and wander. None of us here are pyschics. Human cant read mind. Oh well..I guess pondering further on this issue is fruitless anyway. I'll just ignore and act normal.
