.Tuesday, January 23, 2007 ; 12:06 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Just had an insightful chat with a friend over lunch. I realised we are similar in many ways. Looking for love, looking for that person. How long has it been? Many times I told myself, I don't need this. In many ways, it is an unnecessary trouble to me and to people around me. Both of us don't understand why words are said in certain ways or actions are done. As mind boggling it is, love and relationship are still intriguing and attractive. There's no way to rationalise things. Whenever emotion and heart are involved, don't expect some scientific methodology or experiment-based results to come out. Both of us were at lost when we tried to decide on how a r/s should start. "Like at first sight" or love after a period of friendship? Dunno dunno dunno.
Sigh. Human are borned to love. Yet, the moment we opened up to love, we are also opening ourselves to be hurt. There's enough tears from brokenhearted to fill the entire ocean. Will you do things that you know will hurt those you love and loved you?We seek reasons to explain our actions. Sometimes we are blinded, confused and misguided. Other times we just don't know what has and is happening. Oh well, why must things be so complicated?
I was fine a month ago. I need to get back on track. This feeling has been toying with me for about a week. Enough distractions. Time to get back to work.
Seriously speaking, I can't find a solace in the world that is similar to my Lord. It's not even near there. In Him, I found my peace, my security my joy. How do one feel when he or she falls in love?How does one know that he or she is loved by the partner?It is just a knowing within. It is the same with the Lord. There's an assurance that He will never fail me not cheated on me. He is not human that He should lie. Daddy God loves me for who I am not who I could be. Not just my good and attractive side but also my awful and horrible side. My flaws and weaknesses, He loved too. ~^^~
I don't need to guess whether He means what He said. The love letters (aka bible) that He gave to all His beloved stays true forever. We don't play mind games coz Daddy God has said over and over again that He loves me and you. Glory and honor to Him only. Sometimes I wish I could go back to where I belong - with Daddy God. But, I know there's purpose for me to be here. I shall perserve a little longer. Jesus is coming soon. I'll be home soon.
