.Tuesday, April 03, 2007 ; 10:00 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Every month the same time will come. I am a female species, so there is no choice. The thing I hated the most is the PMS that comes along with it. Thank God the intensity varies every month. This month seemed to be rather heavy; Nauseating, stomach ache, mood swing, head ache, and fatigue.
Yesterday was seniors' farewell. I didn't go because of this. ArrghZ!!This is irritating. The room is my solace. God's word is my comfort. Sermons and massages that played on my laptop soothed my soul. I want to talk to my friends about this. But all of them have their own problems. I know how energy draining it is to listen to complains and negative thoughts. At times, I felt drained counseling people. It's not their fault. Can I choose not to care? Can I give up the chance to show people God's love for them?
This is tiring. I am too tired to care, to ask, to listen. All of us has the same problem as undergrads in NUS. I skipped many lectures, don't know how to do assignments, totally clueless on what was the lecture notes trying to say., and many more. I understand why certain people feel helpless. But, the very moment I heard all these complain, I just feel drained.
How to run on an empty battery. I need to recharge. To gear myself up for the final examination. Sorry friends if I seemed distant and don't care. I'm just tired. Let me rest and run away for awhile. Let me not worry about all of you for awhile.
It's not that I don't want to tell anyone how I feel. What's the point when whatever I said will be a stumbling block for them.
I'll be alright. Just let me be.
God is still faithful. He is faithful no matter how and what I feel. He is my refuge from the storm. He is my Comforter. I can tell Him all things and there will no judgement from Him.
