.Thursday, May 10, 2007 ; 2:50 AM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
I have just tender my resignation email to choir director. Honestly, there's a tinge of sadness as I am gonna leave choir, hopefully not forever. No doubt the time there has been fruitful and enjoyable. I learned so much there, not only singing techniques but life experiences shared by choir members. I guess I'm still finding my place in ministry. People found their niche along the way. Some did it easily, some make lots of effort to be in the place they want to. For me, I don't know what I want as yet. In the process of searching my niche. I'm sure the Lord will show me and bring me there on the shoulder of giants.
I can't quit right away. I'll still be serving tomorrow, sunday and next thursday. At least, end this beautifully. The leaders are really supportive of my decision. I thank God that I am blessed with such good leaders and elders around me. They genuinely care for every single one of us. The Lord surrounds His children with Godly people who will provide Godly counsels. And, most importantly, He never reject those who come to Him and call on His name. How awesome is our God. This is not religion. This is a relationship with the Lord Most High. How loved!!!There's just too many blessings poured out on me by my Daddy God. I lost count of them.
Not according to my own ability that I boast. I have favor and blessings coz Jesus Christ give them to me freely. Free of charge, free flow!!Why?because I am a good christian? hmm..nope..coz my God is good and He loves me!!
Psalm 44:8
In God we make our boast all day long, and we will praise your name forever
Galatians 6:14
May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.
How weak the flesh can be? How unwilling and rebellious it has become? Past few weeks can be summarised into one sentence; the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. PMS is never fun. Haboring jealousy and unhappiness cause erosion in my soul. I felt so dry and condemned. But, the Lord is always faithful. He led me along the way. Never once He left me alone to deal with these negative feelings. He told me to pray and praise and worship Him. When I start condemning myself over choir stuff, He give me the verse
[Life Through the Spirit] Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.”- Romans 8:1-2
He knows I need to talk about my feelings, He gives me people with Godly counsels to help me along. See how He has blessed me!! And more to come!!
As of my remaining days in choir, I shall give my best to serve the Lord coz He deserve the best of me!!All of me!!
