.Sunday, November 04, 2007 ; 9:38 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Still adapting to working life
Still comprehending the expectation of people around me
Still amused by the shrewdness of human mind
Still coping
Still grasping
Still learning
Once in a while, a tinge of discomfort passes by
Don't know why it is there
Don't know what am i afraid of
Is it the calls that I have to make everyday?
Is it the daunting expectation of closing deals?
Is it the entire concept of sales itself?
Or is it my selfish desire of doing what I want rather than fulfilling what God has given to me?
The more I dwell in these, the more confused I am.
I know what to say, or rather the pattern of every single conversation.
What is there to fear when the Lord is with me?
What is there to worry when He has already meet my target everyday.
What's with the fear when the life of God is in me
Producing that supernatural results that only God Himself is responsible.
Feeling is a double edge swords
You'll never know when it will cut you into pieces
"Well, giving in to the flesh once in a while is no big deal"
Yeah right. It's like slippery slope. You are well on the way to the pit.
Despite how I feel, I know I need to be faithful in this job
I know my feeling tends to be disproportionately blown up.
I know i cannot give in to this feeling of just wanting to do "what I feel like doing"
I need to grow up.
And I need God in my situation
I need God to change my bad habits.
