.Monday, February 25, 2008 ; 10:50 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Falling into melancholy again. That "bluish" feeling can be dangerously comfortable at times. No wonder people love to wallow in self pity. It is so easy to enter such emotion.
To quote zhao "Where is the lurve bro?". I miss hall. Sheltered and forgiving, that was the environment I used to be in. No matter how ugly things are in the end we are still friends. Even as victims, everything will pass away once you decided to step away. Now, even you don't want to be in it, somehow or another you are caught in the midst of it. Human are ugly creature. Oh well.
I am disappointed. What is the point of controlling when it is clearly out of desperation. The more you push a tiger to the corner, it will simply make him jump over the wall and leave. They are many tigers around. Fighters who can contribute. Blame it to the management, blame it to us who can't "suck it up". Blame it to the entire system. Blame it to the society. Well, this is part of growing up and living in the real world. Can't blame anyone. I just have to wait until I said "enough is enough". Meanwhile, suck it up and swallow. As long as they don't use me as sacrificial lamb, I will see my new baby till the time is up. I guess loyalty means zero in this place. Oh well. I am just a little ant worker trying to do her part. Let me do my job in peace. Don't aggravate me.
