.Sunday, March 30, 2008 ; 8:54 PM -
.His Mercy is New everY mornInG.
Apparently I can't post up my pics at facebook. Neither can I upload them at flickr. Something about me exceeding my quota. Whatever, I'll just upload some here. New blog skin!!Wheeee...
Simple and pretty. But the font size is a teeny bit too small.
Church was awesome today. His presence is like smoke that fill the entire room from roof to the ground. Who could stand in that Holy Place without being touched by His overwhelming love. God has a sense of humor. Well, to cut the story short, when I want to be alone, God usually out a few people around me that I don't feel like seeing. LOL.
Pastor Prince spoke about how the enemy go about doing his business aka steal, kill and destroy. (As I am typing this, I think my room mate is crying. Don't know to comfort her or not. hmmm)
Anyway, the first and foremost way is by throwing accusation at us. These are not without valid reasons. We still sin after all. The enemy will use that and the law to formulate all sort of accusation against us. It is up to us to receive it or not. If we do, we are allowing him gaining foothold in our life and he will go around destroying things. Don't expect the enemy comes in the form of ugly big demon. Usually he will come in the form of religious leaders, people who just love to "speak" into our life. Somehow, this message strikes a note within me. I have been feeling bad about not spending time with God. Not having quiet time. All I have ever done these days are watching TVs. I prayed for the dryness to go away at work. I prayed for job offer to come. I prayed for peace and joy to reign in my heart even as I am still in my current job. But, deep within I disqualified myself on the basis of not doing His commandment and therefore not getting the blessings that I suppose to have. Negative expectation, that's what I have been feeling lately. Anna got a deal for MBA. Rambo got 6 deals for MBA. I have none.
I know this is the accusation. The dryness at work is the result of not spending enough time with God. I know in my head this is not the case! God bless me because of Jesus' blood on the cross. Because He loves me therefore He will fulfill all that I asked in the name of Jesus. I know this in my head. But in my heart, I doubt it. I know it is a sin to be doubtful about God's goodwill towards me. Feeling so useless. I don't even have the faith to trust in Him. Trust that He will bring the breakthrough.
Forgive me Jesus for feeling this way. I really want to trust in you. That You will make everything work for good for those who love you and are called according to your purpose. I don't know what else should I do.
